I NEVER UNDERSTOOD
I never understood real pain;
just the craziness of a self-employed income
in a volatile marketplace,
I never understood real pain;
just the normal transitions,
children growing up and leaving home,
I never understood real pain until you were taken
I never understood real pain;
just the expected losses in the cycle of life,
broken down cars, skinned knees,
just the expected losses in the cycle of life,
broken down cars, skinned knees,
and broken nails.
I never understood real pain;
just the craziness of a self-employed income
in a volatile marketplace,
with high hopes and a squirrel's saving attitude.
I never understood real pain;
just the normal transitions,
children growing up and leaving home,
youth slipped away, high heels replaced
with spiffy comfort shoes.
with spiffy comfort shoes.
I never understood real pain until you were taken
from me Molly.
Infinite darkness,
broken and bleeding from within,
broken and bleeding from within,
private agonizing wails,
a snow laden cemetery
far, far from home.
A forever emptiness,
non-fixable, aching, vacant void;
a snow laden cemetery
far, far from home.
A forever emptiness,
non-fixable, aching, vacant void;
nightly prayers with forever tears
soaking my pillow.
Your laughter is gone.
Why couldn't it have been me?
soaking my pillow.
Your laughter is gone.
Why couldn't it have been me?
I understand. Oh God, I understand.
-Marsha Abbott
A MOURNING WALK
Each step has a purpose;
to help set my mind for a positive day;
To discover hope.
God please give me hope
and the ability to
quell the aching question, "Why"?
I tie my laces each morning,
open the door and walk up the hill
open the door and walk up the hill
with thoughts of you.
Memories of two little sisters
Rollerskates and elbow pads,
"Mommy I'm awake"
Hugs, tickles and bedtime stories.
Microwave popcorn, triscuits with cheese
blankets and Avonlea,
high school proms
Finding the perfect dress.
I ask the Lord to hold you close;
to help me carry on;
To mend a shattered picture of
a family without you in it.
To mend a shattered picture of
a family without you in it.
Each step has a purpose;
to help set my mind for a positive day;
To discover hope.
God please give me hope
and the ability to
quell the aching question, "Why"?
Molly if those steps would bring you back
I would walk forever.
-Mama
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